Daydreamer

I live deep inside my dreamy head

Where fantasy is real and reality is dead

And I’ve forgotten all the tears I’ve shed

From all the evil things he’s said

 

A place only I know could exist

Where words hit hard like a steel fist

Where he and I never kissed

And my love in no way goes dismissed

 

A beautiful world where I can be weird

Where all hate has disappeared

And my true wildness isn’t feared

My pure self can’t be interfered

 

An imaginary life of happy lies

With hidden truths in a sweet disguise

Where something forms from the simplest of hi’s

And a man finds his answers in my eyes

 

When stars flicker just for us and nights never have to end

Is it really so wrong for me to pretend?

Because Black is Your Favorite Color

You stare fearfully from across the room

As the darkness seeps from inside my head

It escapes, spilling from these eyes of gloom

And drips upon the edge of this bed

 

You watch it writhing in its own filthy pool

Staining sheets and skin with a mystic splash

Remembering the times you played me for a fool

When you were god and I, your trash

 

I hated you, the black, it grew

It festered, filling every thought

Now it flows, it’s coming for you

For all your sins, you will be caught

 

I look at you with bleeding eyes

Are you scared of me and all my hate?

I smile wickedly at your terror-filled cries

You should be, dear, for I’ve sealed your fate

 

Currently listening to Control by Halsey

Poetry In Her Eyes

Did you forget

The first time you felt lost in a stunning stare

Only to realize

You were found in that pair

Of beautifully entrancing brown eyes

 

Did you forget

The electric surge so rare

That pierced through your feeble disguise

Releasing your every care

Barrelling through the lies

 

Did you forget

How they demolished your every despair

Stealing constellations from the skies

Giving life to a new air

Where she is your glorious prize

 

Did you forget

That fiercely dreamy glare

Luring deep desirous sighs

That undeniably enticing dare

Drawing out your feverish cries

 

Did you forget

The poetry you spoke from a single flare

Igniting a spark as soon as it flies

Undressing your heart until it’s bare

Living a dream before it dies

 

Don’t forget when you found in me

That powerful need to be free

Dead Inside

I don’t want to be alive

My soul is crushed by the weight of the world

My heart has been ever deprived

My existence means nothing anymore

 

I don’t believe that I can thrive

This crack reaches deep into my core

I should have never taken the dive

How could I think I would ever soar?

 

I’m not built to survive

When they break down every single door

Use words as weapons to connive

Push and kick me to the floor

 

And so it appears hate has arrived

There’s nothing left to adore

So why the hell am I still alive?

I suppose it’s time to settle the score

Breathe

Breathe

When life shakes our shared realm

And chaos drives us shamelessly mad

Dreams incinerated in a blistering whelm

While passion steers our twisted sights

 

Breathe

When he leers up at me with hungry eyes

With his face buried deep

Hands clenched around my thighs

Moving oceans from below my belly

 

Breathe

While long fingers get lost inside me

Then move to wrap around my neck

Gripping tight, leading me to a place so free

And lips that bring me back to Earth

 

Breathe

When sacred oaths are bound and broken

By greedy souls who want it all

They run and take a silky token

Leaving their mark on tortured hearts

 

Breathe

When stars are lost in perilous stares

Who lure us out and seize our innocence

And all the devilry of silly dares

Will never match the treachery

Of his savage, hollow glare

 

Yet through this all

I will learn to breathe

Too Far Gone

Withering are her morals

Loose are her actions

Alive is her spirit with

Too many distractions

She pretends not to care

But strong are her convictions

Love lost it’s luster now

A slave to Mom’s predictions

If love is the way

Yet no true one

What choice does she have

Than to be done