Fuck It

You’re getting sick of me

We held on foolishly

We should just never be

It’s time that we both see


That we’re both fuckin fools

We fucked up all the rules


Sacrifices you make

And everything I take

This cycle needs to break

It’s all a big mistake


Yea, we’re so fuckin done

Cause all I do is run


I dream of better days

You’re always in a haze

And when I give you praise

We’re right back in the craze


We fucked up all our luck

Now we don’t give a fuck


Everyday we try

We feed ourselves that lie

The price is just too high

It’s time to say goodbye


But I still fuckin stay

It’s just another day

Who were you?

who were you?

to follow me to
my hidden place
to take me from 
my controlled
space? to feed me
from your broken
hands that roamed
around at every 

who were you?

to force your
storms inside my
life? Put me
through your 
worldly strife
bottle up my
words so tight
pluck the wild
out from my light

who were you?

who spoke with
love laced in 
hate? Possessed
a thirst that
could not wait
to command the
tears from my 
soul, break apart 
what once was

who were you?

to watch me whither
with each breath
left alone
caressing death
only to awake 
again, knowing
this is not
The End

Almost Sane


I’m not in denial

I know I’m a flake. I’m a moocher, a liar, a procrastinator. A pushover, an enabler, a loner and a fool.

I won’t seek forgiveness.

I flake because I’m sick and tired. I mooch out of necessity. I lie to keep everyone safe from my truths. And I procrastinate from being overwhelmed.

I’m afraid to stand up for myself. I fear confrontation. I play dumb to keep others from seeing that I know too much. I’m a loner from being let down so often and judged by everyone. And I’m a fool for all my unspoken thoughts.

I’m still a beautiful soul.

I love deeply, I sing sweetly, I hold dearly. I’m passionate when no one is watching. I’m strong when no one expects it. I’m happy and hopeful. I’m a dreamer at heart and a realist from experience. I laugh fully and I believe in myself.

Why should I change?