Me Without You

I lost myself in a dream of you

Only to find

Our reality was my nightmare

I slowly burned my morals

For you

Picking apart my very soul

To please the dark in you

I bathed myself in a pool

Of self-loathing thoughts

I chipped my heart away

Until my love was nothing more

Than shattered remnants of

A beautiful soul cast out

Broken

Lost

Forgotten

Maybe you didn’t notice

If only

You would loosen your grip

On my aching heart

You might see

The flicker in the dust

The flame in the ashes

The glow in the shadows

Of our bitter truth

The filth that

Love couldn’t reach

You can’t see it

But

That fire that grows

That blaze that burns

Slightly brighter everyday

Is me

Rebirthing for something new

You don’t own me

Your control is slipping

And finally

I can breathe again

I can be me

Without you

And that kills you

My resurrection is killing you

But I won’t stop

You’ll never stifle me

I remember who I am

Away from you

And I adore

Every bit of me

Because Black is Your Favorite Color

You stare fearfully from across the room

As the darkness seeps from inside my head

It escapes, spilling from these eyes of gloom

And drips upon the edge of this bed

 

You watch it writhing in its own filthy pool

Staining sheets and skin with a mystic splash

Remembering the times you played me for a fool

When you were god and I, your trash

 

I hated you, the black, it grew

It festered, filling every thought

Now it flows, it’s coming for you

For all your sins, you will be caught

 

I look at you with bleeding eyes

Are you scared of me and all my hate?

I smile wickedly at your terror-filled cries

You should be, dear, for I’ve sealed your fate

 

Currently listening to Control by Halsey

Who am I?

Who am I?

I search for the answer in the souls of others

What I find is all too misleading

To men, I am nothing more than my curves

Something to lust after and grope

I am a pretty face with a tragic heart

With my heart as an obstacle and my face the target

 

Who am I?

If you ask my mother

I am a wonderful creature that can do no wrong

A light in the dark

A burst of magic in a dreary world

The sweetest pair of sunshine eyes

Her own little piece of happiness

 

Who am I though?

If you ask my sister

I’m a promiscuous being

A wild flirt turning chaos into adventure

I’m fun and free and full of life

A belly full of laughs

And a mind full of dreams

 

Still, who am I?

If you ask my husband

I’m a great mother and a caring wife

A sweet girl with a lost soul

Indecisive, lonely and scared

A hopeless romantic who’s forgotten how to love

Someone who can’t be trusted

 

But who am I?

If you ask me, I have no clue

I’m a wildfire consuming life in its path

I’m a daring fool with an open heart

The most selfish selfless person to walk this Earth

I’m a carefree, spirited lover

With an emptiness that has yet to be filled

 

Maybe now you don’t want to know me

But if you still do, good luck

Drowning In You

You are the wildest ocean to lick my skin

Your eyes

The softest blue to ever swallow me

Your hands

The untamed waves that caress my form

Groping me in places that were meant to be hidden

But I have never been good at hiding

From the touch of a ravenous sea

So deep

So powerful

 

I thirst for all of you

I drink in your ripples

Until you choke me

I’m drifting deeper into you

Searching for a shore to save me

 

I panic

You splash

I don’t know how

To stop from drowning in your depths

And you don’t know how

To let me swim freely

So I fill my lungs with your current

Your tide carries me with a bold force

To new, softer waters

Where I find my own way

For I’ve been floating in you for far too long

 

I claim the shore

As I learn to walk again

And every now and then

I come back

If only just to dip

My toes in you

Once more

Watching, Waiting

You sit motionless in your chair

Watching

Waiting

Stars drip their romance upon my figure

Hips sway with each step

Bringing me closer to you

Long hair falls down my back

And I finally reach you in the dark

With tresses tickling your flesh

Tongues playing in a heat

Breath escaping erratically

 

I tremble

Under my moon-soaked skin

When your hands meet my soft curves

Lips travel softly

Moans find freedom in you

I trace my fingers along your muscles

Digging my nails slightly deeper

With slow, strong strokes

You stir in your seat

Still watching

Still waiting

 

I drink in the desire

That seeps from your pores

I tingle from your firm touch

You tell my body what to do

With your low savage groans

And forcible grip of my waist

My bones listen to your commands

They bend to your fire

We melt into a dreamed-up

Puddle of passion on the floor

Yes, you watch but you don’t wait

 

Have me

I scream and I’m yours

I belong to nothing but your stare

No one but you

You steal fantasies from my eyes

Everything I thought I wanted

Has been overtaken

By my craving for you

Then you spill your wildness in me

And watch me take it

No longer waiting

Wild, Copper Nights

Come with me, wild heart

For tonight, you are mine

We can dip our souls in the painted skies

Stain our flesh with the colors of the sunset

Mother Nature is quite the artist

She’ll sketch our silhouettes in the stars

For a pretty penny

It only costs our ever after

But we don’t need a forever

We only need a now

You and I were built for tonight

Our bodies were crafted for such luscious physicality

Don’t immortalize our time

With fabricated sweet nothings

Whispered delicately in my ear

Explore me fully

My touch, my skills, my curves

Will be your newfound muse

Your ever sought splendor

Relish in all that we are tonight

We only have each other for as long as this lust lasts

Our hues collide, splashing the intimate nightfall

And twilight becomes our own masterpiece

As this copper flood takes us to a place only we know

Your hunger for me drives my wildest passions

And suddenly I’m lost in you and you in me

Two Hearts, One Wish

I trudge along the quiet street

Hoping for a soul to meet

I push my earbuds in real tight

Admiring the early birds in flight

I travel to a place unknown

And always find myself alone

My long hair sways from side to side

My ripped jeans hug me with each stride

I wish someone would come find me

But forever alone I shall be

 

I watch you stare at your own feet

And move your body to the beat

Your long locks shine in pure daylight

Your lips look soft enough to bite

Those hips, they make me want to moan

If you were mine, you’d have a throne

But here I sit alone and hide

Afraid to interrupt your glide

You’re such a lovely sight to see

If only you could be with me

We Met in a Dream

“What color is a sunset?” He asked with curiosity draped along his ears.

I peered deep into his golden stare and smiled. “It’s whatever color the fire is behind your eyes.”

I thought it an odd question to ask but he’s only ever lived in a dream. And I don’t dream of sunsets in the night, only the constellations he was born from. All he knows is the darkness of a vast, night sky and I am his only source of light, the moon in his world of endless twilight.

Damaged

You painted my soul with colors we can only dream up

And you brought them to life with the intensity piercing from your dark stare

My heart was once filled to the brim because of you

But you drank from it and left me empty

 

You breathed your desire on my skin

And smeared passion on my lips

We devoured each other until there was nothing left

I’ve never felt so used, have you?

 

Your love was toxic

I’m still draining the poison from my heart

I remember the nights you licked the lust off my curves

You glared at me with hungry eyes and I thought I would melt before you

 

We shattered each other time and time again

You ripped me apart and I wrecked you

But I’ll love your damaged heart if you’ll love mine

Our broken pieces can fit together

Long Lost Soul

Sometimes in my dreams, I see myself in the house I used to live in as a child

But sometimes I see another house and I imagine it was my home in a past life

And sometimes I see myself in a whole other place with someone I don’t know

Someone familiar, and I feel as though I was connected to them at some point, in some way

Like an old love from another life or a best friend when my soul resided in another body

 

My mind doesn’t remember them when I wake up but my heart knows them very well

I find myself wishing I could run into their soul again in this life

Would they remember me too? Would they feel me and know I used to belong to them?

Would they feel the urge to have me once more?

Would I?

Maybe they would remember the bad between us in our old life together

Then again, maybe they would feel only the good and we could relive our best days over

 

If you had the chance to reconnect with a familiar soul from another life, would you?

I would tell them my heart remembers them

She recognizes their heart and the twinkle their soul leaves behind in their stunning eyes

I’ll remember what it feels like when their heart beats for me as I feel it again

 

Long lost soul, if you’re out there right now, I feel you, I remember you

Do you dream of me too? Do you think of the way I made you feel many years ago?

Do you catch yourself standing alone in the shower telling me you don’t know me but you miss me?

I do

I hope someday we can feel it again

I hope you find me and remind me with a single kiss

In this life or another, come back to me