Me Without You

I lost myself in a dream of you

Only to find

Our reality was my nightmare

I slowly burned my morals

For you

Picking apart my very soul

To please the dark in you

I bathed myself in a pool

Of self-loathing thoughts

I chipped my heart away

Until my love was nothing more

Than shattered remnants of

A beautiful soul cast out

Broken

Lost

Forgotten

Maybe you didn’t notice

If only

You would loosen your grip

On my aching heart

You might see

The flicker in the dust

The flame in the ashes

The glow in the shadows

Of our bitter truth

The filth that

Love couldn’t reach

You can’t see it

But

That fire that grows

That blaze that burns

Slightly brighter everyday

Is me

Rebirthing for something new

You don’t own me

Your control is slipping

And finally

I can breathe again

I can be me

Without you

And that kills you

My resurrection is killing you

But I won’t stop

You’ll never stifle me

I remember who I am

Away from you

And I adore

Every bit of me

Drowning In You

You are the wildest ocean to lick my skin

Your eyes

The softest blue to ever swallow me

Your hands

The untamed waves that caress my form

Groping me in places that were meant to be hidden

But I have never been good at hiding

From the touch of a ravenous sea

So deep

So powerful

 

I thirst for all of you

I drink in your ripples

Until you choke me

I’m drifting deeper into you

Searching for a shore to save me

 

I panic

You splash

I don’t know how

To stop from drowning in your depths

And you don’t know how

To let me swim freely

So I fill my lungs with your current

Your tide carries me with a bold force

To new, softer waters

Where I find my own way

For I’ve been floating in you for far too long

 

I claim the shore

As I learn to walk again

And every now and then

I come back

If only just to dip

My toes in you

Once more