Daydreamer

I live deep inside my dreamy head

Where fantasy is real and reality is dead

And I’ve forgotten all the tears I’ve shed

From all the evil things he’s said

 

A place only I know could exist

Where words hit hard like a steel fist

Where he and I never kissed

And my love in no way goes dismissed

 

A beautiful world where I can be weird

Where all hate has disappeared

And my true wildness isn’t feared

My pure self can’t be interfered

 

An imaginary life of happy lies

With hidden truths in a sweet disguise

Where something forms from the simplest of hi’s

And a man finds his answers in my eyes

 

When stars flicker just for us and nights never have to end

Is it really so wrong for me to pretend?

Me Without You

I lost myself in a dream of you

Only to find

Our reality was my nightmare

I slowly burned my morals

For you

Picking apart my very soul

To please the dark in you

I bathed myself in a pool

Of self-loathing thoughts

I chipped my heart away

Until my love was nothing more

Than shattered remnants of

A beautiful soul cast out

Broken

Lost

Forgotten

Maybe you didn’t notice

If only

You would loosen your grip

On my aching heart

You might see

The flicker in the dust

The flame in the ashes

The glow in the shadows

Of our bitter truth

The filth that

Love couldn’t reach

You can’t see it

But

That fire that grows

That blaze that burns

Slightly brighter everyday

Is me

Rebirthing for something new

You don’t own me

Your control is slipping

And finally

I can breathe again

I can be me

Without you

And that kills you

My resurrection is killing you

But I won’t stop

You’ll never stifle me

I remember who I am

Away from you

And I adore

Every bit of me

Because Black is Your Favorite Color

You stare fearfully from across the room

As the darkness seeps from inside my head

It escapes, spilling from these eyes of gloom

And drips upon the edge of this bed

 

You watch it writhing in its own filthy pool

Staining sheets and skin with a mystic splash

Remembering the times you played me for a fool

When you were god and I, your trash

 

I hated you, the black, it grew

It festered, filling every thought

Now it flows, it’s coming for you

For all your sins, you will be caught

 

I look at you with bleeding eyes

Are you scared of me and all my hate?

I smile wickedly at your terror-filled cries

You should be, dear, for I’ve sealed your fate

 

Currently listening to Control by Halsey

Who am I?

Who am I?

I search for the answer in the souls of others

What I find is all too misleading

To men, I am nothing more than my curves

Something to lust after and grope

I am a pretty face with a tragic heart

With my heart as an obstacle and my face the target

 

Who am I?

If you ask my mother

I am a wonderful creature that can do no wrong

A light in the dark

A burst of magic in a dreary world

The sweetest pair of sunshine eyes

Her own little piece of happiness

 

Who am I though?

If you ask my sister

I’m a promiscuous being

A wild flirt turning chaos into adventure

I’m fun and free and full of life

A belly full of laughs

And a mind full of dreams

 

Still, who am I?

If you ask my husband

I’m a great mother and a caring wife

A sweet girl with a lost soul

Indecisive, lonely and scared

A hopeless romantic who’s forgotten how to love

Someone who can’t be trusted

 

But who am I?

If you ask me, I have no clue

I’m a wildfire consuming life in its path

I’m a daring fool with an open heart

The most selfish selfless person to walk this Earth

I’m a carefree, spirited lover

With an emptiness that has yet to be filled

 

Maybe now you don’t want to know me

But if you still do, good luck

Drowning In You

You are the wildest ocean to lick my skin

Your eyes

The softest blue to ever swallow me

Your hands

The untamed waves that caress my form

Groping me in places that were meant to be hidden

But I have never been good at hiding

From the touch of a ravenous sea

So deep

So powerful

 

I thirst for all of you

I drink in your ripples

Until you choke me

I’m drifting deeper into you

Searching for a shore to save me

 

I panic

You splash

I don’t know how

To stop from drowning in your depths

And you don’t know how

To let me swim freely

So I fill my lungs with your current

Your tide carries me with a bold force

To new, softer waters

Where I find my own way

For I’ve been floating in you for far too long

 

I claim the shore

As I learn to walk again

And every now and then

I come back

If only just to dip

My toes in you

Once more

Poetry In Her Eyes

Did you forget

The first time you felt lost in a stunning stare

Only to realize

You were found in that pair

Of beautifully entrancing brown eyes

 

Did you forget

The electric surge so rare

That pierced through your feeble disguise

Releasing your every care

Barrelling through the lies

 

Did you forget

How they demolished your every despair

Stealing constellations from the skies

Giving life to a new air

Where she is your glorious prize

 

Did you forget

That fiercely dreamy glare

Luring deep desirous sighs

That undeniably enticing dare

Drawing out your feverish cries

 

Did you forget

The poetry you spoke from a single flare

Igniting a spark as soon as it flies

Undressing your heart until it’s bare

Living a dream before it dies

 

Don’t forget when you found in me

That powerful need to be free

Smokey Seduction

I watch his wispy smoke

Dancing in the air around us

As it escapes from behind his lips

And all I want

Is to taste it on his tongue

To breathe in the fumes he exhales

Traveling through his lungs

Slipping from his throat

Filling me with his fog

While his hand tangles in my hair

Tugging my head back to expose my neck

Tasting my skin with the deepest hunger

His dark eyes now distracted

Studying clouds that flood out of my mouth

Just before he attacks it

Claiming my lips with his

Because what other purpose do they serve

When talk is nothing but cheap?

And what good is a tongue

If it savors not a thing?

Tell me, baby, what you want

With your mouth and hands

I’ll make sure you never go without

But first

Let me hit that stick between your fingers

And breathe my passion into you

Wild, Copper Nights

Come with me, wild heart

For tonight, you are mine

We can dip our souls in the painted skies

Stain our flesh with the colors of the sunset

Mother Nature is quite the artist

She’ll sketch our silhouettes in the stars

For a pretty penny

It only costs our ever after

But we don’t need a forever

We only need a now

You and I were built for tonight

Our bodies were crafted for such luscious physicality

Don’t immortalize our time

With fabricated sweet nothings

Whispered delicately in my ear

Explore me fully

My touch, my skills, my curves

Will be your newfound muse

Your ever sought splendor

Relish in all that we are tonight

We only have each other for as long as this lust lasts

Our hues collide, splashing the intimate nightfall

And twilight becomes our own masterpiece

As this copper flood takes us to a place only we know

Your hunger for me drives my wildest passions

And suddenly I’m lost in you and you in me

Breathe

Breathe

When life shakes our shared realm

And chaos drives us shamelessly mad

Dreams incinerated in a blistering whelm

While passion steers our twisted sights

 

Breathe

When he leers up at me with hungry eyes

With his face buried deep

Hands clenched around my thighs

Moving oceans from below my belly

 

Breathe

While long fingers get lost inside me

Then move to wrap around my neck

Gripping tight, leading me to a place so free

And lips that bring me back to Earth

 

Breathe

When sacred oaths are bound and broken

By greedy souls who want it all

They run and take a silky token

Leaving their mark on tortured hearts

 

Breathe

When stars are lost in perilous stares

Who lure us out and seize our innocence

And all the devilry of silly dares

Will never match the treachery

Of his savage, hollow glare

 

Yet through this all

I will learn to breathe

Crushed

Let me be your city and get lost in me

Look into my eyes and pull me in your sea

I’ll drink in your waters, you’ll take in my lights

Lose the maps, I will light up your darkest nights

Don’t drown me in your dark depths, we’re meant to be

I’ll swim further in you and know that I’m free

 

You thrash me around with every violent wave

Quench my thirst for you and still more I will crave

You’ll find that I’m more than a land of lost dreams

The danger in my alleys is more than it seems

Through every storm you command, I will be brave

Someday you’ll learn that I am not yours to save

 

But you swallowed me whole and spit me back out

You let our love slip and invited in doubt

You decided my streets were far too lonely

Your ocean was vast and full for me only

I washed ashore and my absence caused a drought

Now you’re an empty, dry desert left without

 

You fill yourself with tears, hoping I’ll jump in

Anything just to feel the warmth of my skin

I’ve closed the dock that leads to you and waved bye

All we share is the same past and the same sky

Filled with awful regrets and every last sin

I still hear waves crash when I begin again

 

Previously published by Harness Magazine at https://www.harnessmagazine.com