Me Without You

I lost myself in a dream of you

Only to find

Our reality was my nightmare

I slowly burned my morals

For you

Picking apart my very soul

To please the dark in you

I bathed myself in a pool

Of self-loathing thoughts

I chipped my heart away

Until my love was nothing more

Than shattered remnants of

A beautiful soul cast out

Broken

Lost

Forgotten

Maybe you didn’t notice

If only

You would loosen your grip

On my aching heart

You might see

The flicker in the dust

The flame in the ashes

The glow in the shadows

Of our bitter truth

The filth that

Love couldn’t reach

You can’t see it

But

That fire that grows

That blaze that burns

Slightly brighter everyday

Is me

Rebirthing for something new

You don’t own me

Your control is slipping

And finally

I can breathe again

I can be me

Without you

And that kills you

My resurrection is killing you

But I won’t stop

You’ll never stifle me

I remember who I am

Away from you

And I adore

Every bit of me

Crushed

Let me be your city and get lost in me

Look into my eyes and pull me in your sea

I’ll drink in your waters, you’ll take in my lights

Lose the maps, I will light up your darkest nights

Don’t drown me in your dark depths, we’re meant to be

I’ll swim further in you and know that I’m free

 

You thrash me around with every violent wave

Quench my thirst for you and still more I will crave

You’ll find that I’m more than a land of lost dreams

The danger in my alleys is more than it seems

Through every storm you command, I will be brave

Someday you’ll learn that I am not yours to save

 

But you swallowed me whole and spit me back out

You let our love slip and invited in doubt

You decided my streets were far too lonely

Your ocean was vast and full for me only

I washed ashore and my absence caused a drought

Now you’re an empty, dry desert left without

 

You fill yourself with tears, hoping I’ll jump in

Anything just to feel the warmth of my skin

I’ve closed the dock that leads to you and waved bye

All we share is the same past and the same sky

Filled with awful regrets and every last sin

I still hear waves crash when I begin again

 

Previously published by Harness Magazine at https://www.harnessmagazine.com

Use me

Use me

For I am a forgotten wish

A shiny coin tossed in a beaten well

The pretty petals plucked from a dainty flower

Stunning stars sprinkling the sapphire sky

That once held your gaze and granted your wish

Now hidden in the light of a new day

While you search for happiness in the sun

 

Use me

For my body is nothing more than dust and wind

I can damage your soul in a whirlwind of hate

Like a tornado spiraling out of control

With no direction and even less grace

An earthquake that claims more than you were willing to give

Crumbling your world into the very dust

You once left me in when you walked away

 

Use me

For my mind is as wicked as it is magnificent

Like a terrifying predator ripping through its kill

Smearing rich blood on its exotic coat

A fleeting romance that ends in woeful heartache

A love letter that turns ugly

Sealed with my signature red lips

Because I have no shame

 

Use me

For I have held your fickle heart in mine

Like a golden locket without a picture

A withering book with faded words and lost pages

The midnight sky with no moon in sight

A bed with two pillows and a vacant side

A lifeless body missing its soul

And just like that, you’ve rendered me empty

Damaged

You painted my soul with colors we can only dream up

And you brought them to life with the intensity piercing from your dark stare

My heart was once filled to the brim because of you

But you drank from it and left me empty

 

You breathed your desire on my skin

And smeared passion on my lips

We devoured each other until there was nothing left

I’ve never felt so used, have you?

 

Your love was toxic

I’m still draining the poison from my heart

I remember the nights you licked the lust off my curves

You glared at me with hungry eyes and I thought I would melt before you

 

We shattered each other time and time again

You ripped me apart and I wrecked you

But I’ll love your damaged heart if you’ll love mine

Our broken pieces can fit together

Succubus

You think I clipped my pretty wings
But I’m a lost soul
With little control
You don’t care who I call my king
As long as I’m fun
That is why we’re young
I’m just your favorite play thing
You slip in my brain
Please, try on my veins
My skin never looked so tempting
My blood seems so pure
It’s all an allure
I’m a prize dangling from a string
To feel my soft touch
And kiss me too much
The danger just a taste will bring
Once you truly see
You’ll never want me
I can’t have a happy ending