Memory Lane

I remember tasting her

I remember it felt wrong

But only because that was how

I was told to feel

And the fear of being caught

Was taken over by

My want for her

Looking back

I think the only problem

Was that I was much too young

To possess such a thirst

 

Maybe if I were raised more free

I would be a different me

 

What I know

Is that I never again kissed

Another girl the way

She kissed me

Stardusted Dreams

Eager whispers seek the moon

From timid tongues riddled with secrets

Undeniable cravings

Desperate to be worn by constellations

Draping the night sky

Hungry with a wanderlust

To sail along this atmosphere

To reach beyond this galaxy

If only to be cradled

By the one who bathes in fantasies

This mysterious dream giver

How she dangles our every lust

She sprinkles a peek only

When our eyes are surely shut

And so we bleed desire

From our hearts up to the heavens

Most of my pieces do not rhyme, that happens to be my favorite way to write

Family is Love

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  My sweet kiddos, Apollos and Lennox

My beautiful children playing with their cousins before our big move to the PNW. I love these kiddos together and I’m really going to miss those wild smiles they get from playing so free with their little tribe. They’ll have to find a new tribe in Seattle which shouldn’t be hard for them. Nothing will top this family love though.

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           My mom with my Troy boy

So I realize I haven’t posted in awhile but I’ve been busy packing and getting rid of so many possessions. I hate that I haven’t written much on here because it actually hurts when I don’t write a little something everyday. I’ll have so many pictures to share from our big road trip and in the city when we reach our destination. We still aren’t sure of what date we’ll be leaving which makes this all the more spontaneous. I love it! We’re so excited to take this big step in our journey to a whole new life.

Adventure awaits us!

Venturing West

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This won’t be a poetry post. If you follow me, you’ll know I write about dreams, mountains and adventures.

Ever since I was a kid, I would dream of adventures. The Goonies, being one of my favorite movies, lit that fire in me. And when I was in middle school, I visited North Carolina and Tennessee and I absolutely fell in love with the mountains. I went on as many adventures as I could on those short lived trips. White water rafting and jumping into the freezing river waters, hiking a steep mountain, lying on the peak while gazing at the stars and then ‘mudsliding’ as they called it, horseback riding along the mountain trails, exploring the cities at night and enjoying dinner shows and much more.

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I remember floating gently down the river, admiring the beauty around me. A boy asked me what was on my mind. I told him, “Don’t you just love these mountain views? This amazing scenery with the sound of the river splashing and the cars driving overhead on winding, mountain roads?” He looked around, then back at me like I was crazy and said, “No.” It left me feeling pity on him for not being able to take it all in complete awe as I did. I wondered how one can lead a happy, meaningful life if one can’t even enjoy what nature bestows upon us everyday.

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I told myself before I left every one of those trips that someday I would move there. Just to be among the giants and wildlife would be exhilarating. I made a promise during the drive away that I would be back. To stay.

Well, I’m writing now because today, my husband and I made the decision to go on a grand adventure! At the end of this month we will be moving across country to Seattle, Washington. We’ve both resided in Florida practically our whole lives and we’ve felt for awhile now that it’s time for a change. There isn’t much wildlife or curvature of the earth here. The most we have are gators and crowded manmade beaches over an hour away. We don’t even see hills in our parts. We’re ready to live our lives and fill it with adventure and opportunities instead of just existing here. Anywhere we go will be a struggle. We have an opportunity and we’re taking it! And…. we’re driving the whole way together. It’s like an ultimate road trip! It’s going to be so hard with our 3 kids but it will be so worth it.

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We’re both terrified and excited to take this leap and leave all our family behind. But this is something we need to do for ourselves. We’re not just running away from this incessant heat and family issues. We’re leaving behind negativity, toxicity, uncertainty and going after a long awaited dream of ours. We’re seeking a better future and many more adventures in business success, self growth and family exploration! We’re chasing not only our dreams but our future.

There will be more updates and pictures as the time nears but for now I’ll keep posting my poetry and pictures of this beautiful Florida world I’ve always known.

Mountains of my Soul

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My soul doesn’t belong here. The moon calls on my heart to explore a sweeter land. The mountains pull me in deeper. They demand my presence. They long for the simplest embrace of my fingertips against the leaves of their trees. They crave for the wild winds to flow through me and steal my soul for them.

Where shall I thrive? Where is my home? You are my home, dear mountains. You hold my heart high on your peaks. My spirit is lost in your forests. Or is it found there?

You haunt my dreams because I am not with you. These dreams I have are far more than that. They are plans, hopes, urges. They are not forgotten. They are not in vain.

You draw me closer with each day. With each breath, I am yours. You have me. I ache to feel my toes in your earth. To soak in your waters. My skin tingles as I taste your air. I’ll breathe you in as if it’s the last time, everytime. I write my poetry for you, oh mountains of my soul.

I will find you, that I promise. I will follow, this I swear. I envision your sweet song giving birth to great adventure underneath my bones. I revel in it as it overtakes me.

And I know, this is my destiny.

Lovely Blog Award

 

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Thank you vivilise for nominating me for the Lovely Blog Award! I’m very flattered 😊

Rules:

  1. Each nominee must thank the person who nominated them and link their blog in their post.
  2. They must include the rules and add the blog award badge as an image.
  3. Must add 7 facts about themselves.
  4. Nominate 15 people to do the award!

    Here are 7 random facts about me:

1. I love sea turtles and elephants

2. My favorite color is blue

3. My birthday is Christmas day

4. Coincidentally, my favorite                         number is 7

5. My biggest dream in life is to write           a best selling book of poetry

6. I want to travel the whole U.S. and           someday visit Switzerland

7. I love hiking, being in nature and             I’m absolutely infatuated with                   moutains. Someday I will live in               the mountains.

I hope you enjoyed learning a little more about me.

Here are my nominees:

1. vivilise

2. plasticsouls

3. Mohamad Al Karbi

4. Nupur Nimbekar

5. My Journey

6. nocturnalmortal

7. Suddenly Vantastic

8. FightOrFlight

9. warkepranav

10. Flowers And Wanderlust

Writer With a Cause

I’m utterly lost without you

My world has become a temple built of you

My soul is your throne

My hand, your instrument

We are known for falling for other humans

I have a human I adore

But you are my passion

I was created to write

A day without writing leaves me feeling incomplete

I scribble, I create, I express

Still I crave more

I’m a writer without a reader

I was made to write

I feel it in my blood, stronger everyday now

It unifies my bones

It seeps through my skin

Pours from my lips

Bleeds from my pen

It fills me to my fingertips

I ache to let it out and put it on display

I was born to write

Whatever a purpose is, this is it

Whatever a calling has been, this is mine

Whatever my pain is, this is my cure

Whatever my mood may be, this is my clarity

Tell me I’ve done for you what you have done for me

Declare my worth in your name

Adore my works for you are my muse

You are my arrow, sweet words

You are the only thing I know to be true

You are the only form I naturally possess

Dwell in me the rest of my days

For I cannot fathom another way to live

You are

And I am

So let’s be

Enchanted Nights

 

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The moon sees me

My heart, my desires, my secrets

She feels them tugging at her

My soul meets with her every night and they whisper about dreams dancing in my head

My soul is awake and never settles

She wanders with the moon in search of another

My bones mean nothing in the night yet my skin is still alive waiting to be touched

My spirit is free and rebellious

She hears all and listens to no one

My whole being, all of me

Stimulated by wishes that fill the sky

Moonstruck

Brimming with stardust

The night was made for such wildness