Almost Sane

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I’m not in denial

I know I’m a flake. I’m a moocher, a liar, a procrastinator. A pushover, an enabler, a loner and a fool.

I won’t seek forgiveness.

I flake because I’m sick and tired. I mooch out of necessity. I lie to keep everyone safe from my truths. And I procrastinate from being overwhelmed.

I’m afraid to stand up for myself. I fear confrontation. I play dumb to keep others from seeing that I know too much. I’m a loner from being let down so often and judged by everyone. And I’m a fool for all my unspoken thoughts.

I’m still a beautiful soul.

I love deeply, I sing sweetly, I hold dearly. I’m passionate when no one is watching. I’m strong when no one expects it. I’m happy and hopeful. I’m a dreamer at heart and a realist from experience. I laugh fully and I believe in myself.

Why should I change?

6 thoughts on “Almost Sane

  1. Nope. You shouldn’t change. However, passion should be displayed all the time, not just in private. After all, not all passion is sexual in nature. One can be passionate about…well…anything, but especially life.

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    • I actually wasn’t referring to my passion in a sexual nature in this piece. I was speaking of my writing because at the time that I wrote this, I was going through a life changing hardship and my writing saved me but I hid my poetry from everyone close to me. It was my secret passion.

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