Amen

Take the ugly from my veins

That hate my body

And corrupt my brain

Quiet the voices in my head

That say I’m better off just dead

Free my heart from it’s steel cage

Built of sadness, fear and rage

Find my soul, wandering lost

Bring it back at any cost

Forgive my angry words of doubt

Show me faith when I’m without

Teach my spirit a sweet, new song

Maybe I’ll smile when things go wrong

Dream in Adventure

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Pure violet whispers of wild, relic dreams

She dances in memories once forgotten

Painting with words of infinite beauty and meaning

This world in her head is more than pretend

Follow a path, they all lead to these dreams

Wandering around is the best way to find one

Her story is an unconventional love letter

To no one and all who may read it

It is written in the language of adventure

For adventure has always been her passion

And the only means to decipher her heart

Family is Love

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  My sweet kiddos, Apollos and Lennox

My beautiful children playing with their cousins before our big move to the PNW. I love these kiddos together and I’m really going to miss those wild smiles they get from playing so free with their little tribe. They’ll have to find a new tribe in Seattle which shouldn’t be hard for them. Nothing will top this family love though.

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           My mom with my Troy boy

So I realize I haven’t posted in awhile but I’ve been busy packing and getting rid of so many possessions. I hate that I haven’t written much on here because it actually hurts when I don’t write a little something everyday. I’ll have so many pictures to share from our big road trip and in the city when we reach our destination. We still aren’t sure of what date we’ll be leaving which makes this all the more spontaneous. I love it! We’re so excited to take this big step in our journey to a whole new life.

Adventure awaits us!

Break My Body

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I still feel you

I feel your rivers rush through me as they carry my bones to places they’ve never been

I watch the storms in your eyes as you taste my fears

My wildness is your favorite flavor

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I lie in the chaos of your spilled words while you drink from our feverish haze

I adore them for they feed my heart passion

You break my body to fit yours

Desire flushes me in a pink cloud with fire tempting my skin

These are the nights our souls crave

We live in the raw

Venturing West

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This won’t be a poetry post. If you follow me, you’ll know I write about dreams, mountains and adventures.

Ever since I was a kid, I would dream of adventures. The Goonies, being one of my favorite movies, lit that fire in me. And when I was in middle school, I visited North Carolina and Tennessee and I absolutely fell in love with the mountains. I went on as many adventures as I could on those short lived trips. White water rafting and jumping into the freezing river waters, hiking a steep mountain, lying on the peak while gazing at the stars and then ‘mudsliding’ as they called it, horseback riding along the mountain trails, exploring the cities at night and enjoying dinner shows and much more.

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I remember floating gently down the river, admiring the beauty around me. A boy asked me what was on my mind. I told him, “Don’t you just love these mountain views? This amazing scenery with the sound of the river splashing and the cars driving overhead on winding, mountain roads?” He looked around, then back at me like I was crazy and said, “No.” It left me feeling pity on him for not being able to take it all in complete awe as I did. I wondered how one can lead a happy, meaningful life if one can’t even enjoy what nature bestows upon us everyday.

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I told myself before I left every one of those trips that someday I would move there. Just to be among the giants and wildlife would be exhilarating. I made a promise during the drive away that I would be back. To stay.

Well, I’m writing now because today, my husband and I made the decision to go on a grand adventure! At the end of this month we will be moving across country to Seattle, Washington. We’ve both resided in Florida practically our whole lives and we’ve felt for awhile now that it’s time for a change. There isn’t much wildlife or curvature of the earth here. The most we have are gators and crowded manmade beaches over an hour away. We don’t even see hills in our parts. We’re ready to live our lives and fill it with adventure and opportunities instead of just existing here. Anywhere we go will be a struggle. We have an opportunity and we’re taking it! And…. we’re driving the whole way together. It’s like an ultimate road trip! It’s going to be so hard with our 3 kids but it will be so worth it.

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We’re both terrified and excited to take this leap and leave all our family behind. But this is something we need to do for ourselves. We’re not just running away from this incessant heat and family issues. We’re leaving behind negativity, toxicity, uncertainty and going after a long awaited dream of ours. We’re seeking a better future and many more adventures in business success, self growth and family exploration! We’re chasing not only our dreams but our future.

There will be more updates and pictures as the time nears but for now I’ll keep posting my poetry and pictures of this beautiful Florida world I’ve always known.

Mountains of my Soul

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My soul doesn’t belong here. The moon calls on my heart to explore a sweeter land. The mountains pull me in deeper. They demand my presence. They long for the simplest embrace of my fingertips against the leaves of their trees. They crave for the wild winds to flow through me and steal my soul for them.

Where shall I thrive? Where is my home? You are my home, dear mountains. You hold my heart high on your peaks. My spirit is lost in your forests. Or is it found there?

You haunt my dreams because I am not with you. These dreams I have are far more than that. They are plans, hopes, urges. They are not forgotten. They are not in vain.

You draw me closer with each day. With each breath, I am yours. You have me. I ache to feel my toes in your earth. To soak in your waters. My skin tingles as I taste your air. I’ll breathe you in as if it’s the last time, everytime. I write my poetry for you, oh mountains of my soul.

I will find you, that I promise. I will follow, this I swear. I envision your sweet song giving birth to great adventure underneath my bones. I revel in it as it overtakes me.

And I know, this is my destiny.